I DO NOT LOVE YOU !

I do not love you except because I love you;
I go from loving to not loving you,
From waiting to not waiting for you
My heart moves from cold to fire.
I love you only because it's you the one I love;
I hate you deeply, and hating you
Bend to you, and the measure of my changing love for you
Is that I do not see you but love you blindly.
Maybe January light will consume
My heart with its cruel
Ray, stealing my key to true calm.
In this part of the story I am the one who
Dies, the only one, and I will die of love because I love you,
Because I love you, Love, in fire and blood.” 

The Cutest Thing !

Goshhh ! I think I can spend rest of my life listening to you mumbling when you're half awake from sleep !
Till this second I'm thinking about it and smiling to myself * THAT WAS EFFFING CUTE* All you were saying was *I'M SLEEPING* Awwwww.. No matter what I said.. All you said was *I'm Sleepinggg* And for no reason you asked me to sleep also.. Just a like small kiddo.. That conversation made my day♥.. Heeeee ! You are the cutest thing that happened in my life and no matter what you will always remain in my heart.. :) And this he reason why I bug you to stay with me ! I can just sit and watch you for hours ♥

If it not as my life partner at least as MY UNFORGETTABLE FIRST LOVE ! ♥


I'm ready to accept the fact even if we can't be together :)
At times we just have to let it go right ? But still you're my cuteness-honey-boo-baby ♥♥♥

I don't NEED you !!

I didn’t need you
I won’t need you

I’m doing great going fineit’s over and I’m fine

You are out of my mind
I didn’t realize that I didn’t need you
I finally saw the sky
And turns out it’s mine
I don’t need you anymore

I’m so glad I got you off my chest
It’s a new day, making me say; I want to go west
Away from where you make me messed
And I’m glad your not here to bring me down
I’m a flower, who needs the sunlight
And with you as shelter
No wonder I grew weak, because now I want to fight

I don’t need you

Better off without you wasting my time
Taking off my covers so I’m not blind
Wow this life is so good to me
I’m in full bloom and I’m filling the room
I’m sweet like perfume
And I white out my gloom

I don’t want you
I didn’t want you
I won’t want you

I didn’t take the time to realize that I’m over you
And I’m so better off, because I know I’ll be happy now
I don’t need you

It’s over and I’m fine
You are out of my mind
I didn’t realize that I didn’t need you
I finally saw the sky
And turns out it’s mine
I don’t need you anymore.... !!

I OUT OF THIS :)

HAPPIE BUfFDAY !

Happy Birthday To Our Dearest Brother Arvind Vicknesh :)

You are the best and WE LOVE YOU SO FREAKING MUCH !

The cutest hottest and funniest boy. Wish you a blessed future !

FROM THE LAYAANNZZ :D

SISTERS♥

My sister's means world to me ! I love them,adore them and most of all I CAN NEVER LIVE THIS LIFE WITHOUT THEM :)

Having a sister is like having a best friend you can't get rid of.  You know whatever you do, they'll still be there.  I share with them my sadness, happiness ! MY TOTAL FEELING.

They never let me down NO MATTER WHAT :D THEY MEAN WORLD TO ME.

Oh yea, BAVUTHRI KAMACHI NAIDU AND SOORYA THARSHINI <3.

My sweethearts.My sisters. TheLoveOfMyLife. 

They have been an encouragement to me and my sisters always wanted the best for me :)

I LOVE MY SISTER!Sisters are special. Sisters are friends. They laugh at jokes that no one else really understands. Sisters share memories of smile.

BAVUTHRI.

LOL. My Bauthi Kutty. This woman is a total ROWDY. Now she's 17 but still I remember the time she walk around with the milo bottle wearing my shirt. Haha. Not forgetting her AFRO.

This girl gotta a curly hair and it used to look an AFRO. She is the naughtiest.

A little different compared to others. When she was asked to not to do something

that's when she start up questioning WHY IS THAT SO ? I WILL DO IT !

This girl I have no words. Funny one. Love her freaking muchhhhh. 

SOORYA.

Now, now. Soya Kutty ! Lazy piglet. Haha. She gona screw me for this.

When she was a baby she used to look like a WHITE GHOST SO FAIR.

When ever I ask her to do something you shouLd see her acting * Aaaahh stomach aching and end up me being her MAID. I fight with her the most. LOL. We scream to each and other.

Another crack-pot.  Aahhhh. I love this piglet toooooooooo. 

BAVUTHRI

I LOVE YOU BOTH SO DARNNNNN MUCHIEEEEE ! NOTHING BEATS YOU BOTH.

Moveeeeeeee !

There it goes ! The final chapter :)

So yeah.. I guess its all over now. Putting up a huge FULLSTOPS for everything. 6 years and it ends here my love.

When I sit and think UFF ! Gosh I have come up with so many questions and I end up in a total confusion,worrying about MY LIFE. Where am I dragging myself too ? Haiiizz. What is happening to myself?

Hmmm this is very scary. Maybe I don't realise things right. Finally now I know what do I really need in my life.

I guess I'm tired with this. I don't wish to go on and hurt myself more. Creating fake hope in my heart is NO MORE USE. When you're not bothered at all why must I drag this forever ?

I have noticed, I'm not being even an option for you to look at me :(

IT HURTS. Its okay. I don't wish to go on anymore. 

I'm fine and I have decided the NEED in my life. I'm not going to look back.

LOOK FOWARD. MY FUTURE. 

Let It Go !

Let your tears come.  Let them water your soul.  

Tears are the safety valve of the heart when too much pressure is laid on it.

Tears are the silent language of grief.

Tears is your best companion when you're down. And I have realized it six years back.

TEARS FLOOD MY EYES ! I can't stop it though. But today I felt a difference! My eyes are no more tearing. Tears are dried like a dessert without water. I never I have cried this much in my life. But those tears are worth to be shed ! You are my one of kind LOVE.٠•●♥•●♥♥
AND NOW ITS THE END AND I'M A LOSER.  ٠•●♥•●♥♥










I wish to say this to you.


My Dear Bubby :) 


I don't need any GOOD GUY to take care of me , but all I need is you.
Humans do change but the real personality of them always lives inside and it will never VANISH. If it possible try to get put it into your brain. Your brain need a service I guess. Unpredictable Idiot. But its okay. When you said it I'll listen. I'll move on. Thank you for everything you have done for me. ILOVEYOU. But just that I don't feel safe and complete anymore !

I don't wish too..

I don't wish to hate you, I don't wish to stop loving you..

I don't wish to let you go, I don't to wish chase you away

I don't wish too say goodbye, I don't wish to stop talking to you

I don't wish you to stop looking at you , I don't wish to stop admiring you

I wish to be with you forever,now and ever..


Wishes and dreams don't always come true. I know I have realized now.
Now I'm stepping out from my dream. Real World hurts but I need to go on
with it.

Its over. Good Bye.I'm leaving.

LOVE FROM MY SIDE !

What is love according to you ?

For some LOVE is LUST.

For some LOVE is FUN TIME.

For some LOVE is FLIRTING.

For some LOVE is MONEY MAKING.

But for a girl like me LOVE is being with someone you care about and you will never stop thinking about that person. Its natural. You don't need to look good all just to impress the one you love. Love is being comfortable with someone and you can just be yourself. Like an example you  no makeup, no fancy clothes, wake up next to them and think that you 2 are the only people existing in the world. Love is not an expectation. The feel should come by its own. 

Of course you can only FEEL LOVE. But the feel of being in love , its like a WOW. When you get butterflies in your stomach each time you see him around , your heart beats fast when he is close to you, You can only FEEL this ! LOVE IS A GREAT FEELING. You know its like there is this one person gives you this awesome feel and HE seems to be the world to you. Awwww.

According to me I define love in simple ways. When you're in a relationship sacrificial, give and take is not enough to make your love story as an happy ending.And of course without trust, your love story is incomplete yet It need more spices!

Love is such a cute feeling. Heee. I see love like this :-

A tight hug each time you see. Maybe a surprise hug ? It will be very sweet.

When the you're  eating , feed your baby girl with LOVE.

A kiss on her forehead. 

Hold her hands and walk in the crowd. Be proud to say she is mine !

Look into her eyes and say BABY, I LOVE YOU.

Call her and talk to her the whole night.

Bring her for a long drive. Crack jokes , Mess her hair.

Movie. Let her to lay her head on your shoulder.

Never let her to feel loneliness. 

She don't need expensive gifts but if he can spare some time with her , NOTHING IS VALUABLE THAN THAT.

Wipe her tears and hug her tightly and whisper into her ears. I love you.

Choosing clothes , or whatever stuff she wants to buy.

Make her to feel she is the SPECIAL ONE :)

There is no wrong to call her BEAUTIFUL.

If she did a mistake , correct it WITH LOVE.

When she is down with sick , be with her.

Text her. 

Show your love and care. Don't let her to expect for it.

A letter to say what you feel when you can't find the right words.

Cute arguments , irritate her :)

All this are the simple things that we fail to do at times. A strong bond starts from a good understanding, trust and love. When there is no trust, love can never exist. A little cute arguments , oh come on what is love with arguments ? But never let that to lead to separation. Maybe in anger you can just throw words to your loved ones , you know what ? You're just hurting them more. Once you threw your words , it can be never taken back. SCAR WILL REMAIN IN YOUR HEART.

JUST LIKE HOW A SCAR I HAVE IN MY LITTLE HEART !

APPRECIATE THE PERSON THAT LOVES YOU THE MOST..

VALUE THEM ! AT LEAST FOR ONCE :(

And finally, 

I'M STILL WAITING FOR MY HAPPY ENDING.

WILL YOU BE MY HAPPY ENDING BABY ?

YOU KNOW I MEANT YOU. I'M STILL AROUND YOU.

RIGHT BESIDE YOU. NO WHERE ELSE. 

 AND WHY IT CAN'T BE ME ? 

Love,

HEART-BROKEN GIRL.